【英语oc】伊莱妮谈及拔出时的自述
Well, it's quite hard to say but…… Every time when I have sex with my boyfriend, I'll be kinda pissed-off when he pulls out. Yeah, I'm not that hurry in starting a family, or being obsessed with cum or what, but I'll start feeling sad - and later on, kinda pissed-off - when he pulls out and starts jerking off towards me.
'Cuz you see, he's f*cking me all night long, and finally when he's gonna reach his orgasm, he decides to use his hand rather than me to end it. Then why not masturbate? What do I mean to him during that sex? I don't know, but…… it feels like that I'm just a tool for him, a tool that helps him to reach his orgasm, and finally when he's 'bout to come, he's even shame of letting me make him come - maybe that's an overstatement, but that's how I feel.
So whatever we use, condom or pill, I'll never let him come outside. If he really wants to, then I'll help him finish it. You know, just lend him a hand, or maybe something else. If he wants to have sex with me, then I should be the one that makes him come, otherwise it will be pointless for both of us.